I have been scared to post for the past year, as I’ve been avoiding to post on this blog because somehow…somewhere…sometime ago I started getting thoughts that I’ll be judged for my own writing and self-expression on this blog. I’m not sure when I started thinking these thoughts, but maybe because of the way I was raised by my dad always being judgmental of me, or maybe because of the way I grew up in school made me criticize myself for not always getting or being 100, or maybe just the way people think around me made me feel scared to write anything down…whatever it could’ve been I was scared to write again.
What prevented me from writing all this time had been my own limiting thoughts and beliefs. It had limited my own self expression for myself that had not made me write anything at all, and by doing so I had made myself depressed. I realized I haven’t given myself ME time to express myself to the world, as I wanted to and needed to, but instead focused more on how I was going to be judged, criticized, or evaluated for my own writing on this blog…and that had never even happened before. My own thoughts…more so my own fears was my biggest illusion I created for myself that have prevented me from my own goals and desires that I knew in my heart I could and still achieve.
I was always jumbled with my own thoughts and feelings I carried out in my heart, day in and day out, it got to the point I couldn’t hold it in anymore and made me realized TODAY I have to start writing. I realized all this time I had been anxious and totally not the happy-empowered-inspired me as I was before, because I stopped writing. Writing had always been my outlet to have a voice in this modern world and to make a positive impact; writing helped me un-bottle my true feelings, reminded myself of my own values, my own opinions about anything that I could never express to anyone; writing was what I needed to do to become happy again.
Deep in my heart I know what my purpose is and that is to redefine what the society think is beautiful, redefine what society think is cool, redefine what society think is trendy, redefine what society think WE need to be, and how WE should live. We are imperfect, flawed, odd, weird, strange, scarred, wounded, broken-hearted individuals, and I am here to express all the pieces that made us who we are today and who I am today ❤
It’s only you that you have to look into to know exactly what you need to do to make yourself happy again. When you are unhappy, there is a way to be happy again and that is within you. You are your only limit to achieve anything you want to be or have, go and push through it and never forget to always be you ❤ Stay tune to the new Empower Love Blog.